Journey

This was first shared on my Facebook profile.

But needs to be shared here, too.

Not everyone uses Facebook.

I haven't always walked with God. There was a time when I ran from God. Because I truly had no idea Who God really is. I had some school smarts, but no life smarts. I kept making one bad decision after another. I never tried to make anything of myself. I never tried to be better than I was. I didn't know I could. I went from being a mouse my whole life to a bitch by senior year. I graduated high school, but that's it. Got my first car and had my first accident. Got a job, met a drug dealer, made new crazy friends who also had self-destruct buttons. Spent the next four years partying everyday. Wasted my money, my time and my life. Met a man who loved me enough to get me clean and sober and pregnant. Had my first baby alone. Stayed clean and sober. But still I had no roots, no foundation on which to build a life.

Met another man. Gave my heart to him, too. Started drinking again because I was weak. United his children with mine and gave birth to twins. Found God. And Jesus Christ. And the Holy Spirit. Quit drinking. Now I had roots and a viable foundation. Which I would soon find tested. He found another woman, I filed for divorce and found new place to live. God found me a new place to grow and blossom.

Went from being a party girl to a Sunday School teacher, a Singles' leader and a preacher. God brought a man into my life and we became friends first. Dated for 2 years, then got married. Now he teaches Sunday School and I preach on the 'net. Isn't God amazing?

I have a firm foundation. I still make decisons, but I don't make them alone. My self-destruct button is broken and my joy in Christ is renewable energy daily.

But the repercussions of being stupid for so long appear to be what my body is reaping now. I am still saved. I am still serving. I am still walking in power and authority of Jesus Christ. But I am sick because of all the weeds I have allowed into the Garden of my life. Now I am ready for God to pull the roots of these weeds out of my heart and my mind, that more room would be made for His glory to take up residence in me.

The Color of Worship - White

The color white is defined in Scripture as Purity, Righteousness, Light. White makes known the Holiness of God and encourages the people to prepare to be in His Presence.

Revelation 19:11 And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and He that sat upon him is called Faithful and True, and in righteousness He does judge and make war. Revelation 19:14 And the armies which were in heaven followed Him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen, white and clean. Revelation 1:14 His head and His hairs were white like wool, as white as snow; and His eyes were as a flame of fire. White hot. The holiness of God can kill you if you are not prepared to be in His presence. Isaiah 1:18 Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. Back in Revelation Christ is described as having woolly white, snow white hair. See the connection here? Sin kills; Jesus saves. Sin dies; Jesus lives.

God is saying, "Let's be logical about this. When you and I meet at the altar, I will reveal your sins to you and you can lay them down at My Son's feet; the foot of the cross. His blood will drop into your sinful heart and wash your unrighteousness from you. And My Holy Spirit will fill you and guide you, if you let Him, to the state of holiness which I have prepared for you. Let's talk about this, this subject of sin vs. holiness."

Sin separates us from God. Dying in our sin separates us eternally from God. After death there are no more chances. It is in this life that we have to choose Christ as Savior. It is in this life that we have to make a decision to follow God all the time, not just part of the time. It is in this life that we reach the logical conclusion that only Jesus Christ fulfills all of Bible prophecy in being the ONLY BEGOTTEN SON OF GOD. Sin denies God. Sin denies God's Word in all forms. The Word of God is Holy. The Word of God is Living. The Word of God is in written form: The Holy Bible; in physical form: Jesus Christ; in spoken form: preach the gospel of salvation.

Jesus brings us closer to God. Dying in Jesus in this life, we live eternally in His life. Death here is but a whisper that leaves our fragile human bodies and enters the presence of God. Why can we be in God's eternal presence after death? Because Jesus covered our sins here with His own self, and God sees His own Son, our covering/our protection, when we stand in God's presence. Pretty cool, huh?

And the Holy Spirit of God, through our willingness, our desire to draw closer to God, helps us obtain a smidgen of holiness in this life. See, it's still about the power of choice. God can't make you be holy, you have to want to be holy. God can't save you if you don't want to be saved. He loves us enough to let us make our own choices; and His heart weeps for the wrong choices we make, I believe.

I've made too many wrong choices in my life. Unlike former President Clinton, I inhaled. Though God has forgiven my poor choices made in the past, I still will reap what I have sowed into my life and my body. This memory loss thing may very well lead back to those days. I sowed dissension, rebellion and disobedience into my life when I was younger. So, it's only logical that I reap dissension, rebellion and disobedience from my children. BUT GOD got a hold of my life and He won't let me go.

Now, I sow PRAYING FOR MY CHILDREN into their lives. Now, I sow PRAYING WITH MY CHILDREN into their lives. Now, I sow PRAYING FOR EACH OTHER into the lives of my family and friends. Now, I sow DAILY BIBLE STUDY into my life and yours. Now, I sow FAITHFULNESS in tithing into my life and theirs. Now, it's a whole new ball game. And I'm tagging the devil out!