I Let Myself Be Broken

To the ones who broke my heart, I let myself be broken. While it made you feel powerful and superior, I allowed myself to be humbled and humiliated.

God said, “Present your body a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.” [Romans 12:1] My heart is part of my body. Therefore, I let myself be broken.

God said, “Rejoice, inasmuch as you are partakers of Christ’s sufferings (partaker: share in, receive, have a portion of); that, you may be glad also with exceeding joy. If you are reproached for the Name of Christ, happy are you; for the spirit of glory and of God rests upon you: on their part He is evil spoken of, but on your part He is glorified. But do not allow yourself to suffer as a murderer, or as a thief, or as an evil-doer, or as a busybody in other men’s matters. Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify God on this behalf. For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God? and if the righteous scarcely be saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear? Wherefore, let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to Him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator. [1 Peter 4:13-19] Christ let Himself be broken for me, and you. When you revile me for trying to be what God is telling me I need to be, I let myself be broken.

God said, “And whether one member (of the body) suffer, all the members suffer with it; or one member be honored, all the members rejoice with it.’ Whether it is our physical body that suffers, or our spirit man that suffers, we suffer together. The persecuted church is us. All of us. While some attacks on the body of Christ are made known to the world, most will never be heard until judgment day. The body of Christ was broken in the courtyard and on the cross. He surrendered to God’s will for His life, as should we. We need to let ourselves be broken. Not for our glory, but for God’s. 

You who persecute God’s people beware: we are praying for you. We are praying for your salvation. We are praying for your sanctification. We are praying for your souls to be given to God through His Son Jesus Christ. We are praying. And there is nothing you can do to stop us. We have let ourselves be broken. I let myself be broken. And someday many of you will let yourselves be broken, too.